Have you ever had that feeling you are so so happy you cried? Well, I just had a moment with my mom---yes, we were both crying while hugging and laughing for a good few minutes---when I received the news that I passed the November 2013 Board Exam for Civil Engineers. It just felt surreal. In fact, until now it hasn't sunk in to me yet that I am now a licensed Civil Engineer. Really? Imagine that.
Maybe because even now that the exam was over, if it had not been to Him who stood beside me and is backing me up until this very day, I don't know where will I be today. This achievement is all His doing. Not mine. I am just a vessel so He can demonstrate His goodness, His mercy, His grace and faithfulness to everyone.
Maybe you are new to this blog, and you don't know me at all. I have always been an average girl. I am not the super-brainy type who ace all her exams from the day she was born; nor am I the genius-type who ace all her exams from the day she was born even without having to study at all! No, I am not those things. In fact, I failed two of my subjects during my latter year in college. So you can just imagine my insecurities prior to taking the board exams. I know that I couldn't do it on my own.
But what did God say? He said in 2nd Chronicles 20, verses 15-17; "Do not be afraid or discouraged... For the battle is not yours, but God's. You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm... and the Lord will be with you." And He kept His promise. He went with me those two days last weekend that I took the board exams.
So, how do I know that He was there with me? That week before the exam dates, I was so tensed and I felt like I haven't reviewed quite enough. I felt like I still have a lot to study for, that there were topics I haven't been able to read and that there were still so many formulas yet to memorized. I was getting all panicky and anxious. And there came the spiritual upliftment activity that Dr. Marquez and other staff of Megareview and Tutorial Center (where I did my review, btw) and one verse in the Bible that the speaker shared struck me. It was in Philippians 4:6-7, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." I did just that. I lifted all my worries to God and He gave rest to my soul and peace for my mind. I dunno if you have experienced that kind of tranquil moment yet but it was a weird feeling. I kinda worry pa nga that I wouldn't be able to answer anything kasi I didn't feel nervous at all and my head felt so light. Yun na pala yun. The moment I received the questionnaires, that's when all the things I have studied for all came out of me. He made me remember formulas, principles and techniques. And surely, I know for a fact that it was Him who was doing all those things for me. He was working and is still working in my life.
Right now, I just want to thank You, Father God for helping me in my time of need, for the wisdom, the skills, the abilities and most especially the strength, the will and the determination to finish what I have started. Thank You for not giving up on me most especially on those times when I was so difficult. Thank You for Your grace, mercy and Your unfailing love that made me strive to be worthy of those things. Lastly, thank You for answering my prayers and letting me experience Your reality so I can also be a testimony of Your goodness to everyone. Thank You so much, Father God. Thank You, Jesus. This is all You. Let all the praises, glory and honor be unto You. :)
"No one whose hope is in you, will ever be put to shame." - Psalms 25:3
